This is where I find myself. Caught in the emotional roller-coaster of trying to be a faithful husband, a diligent worker, a strong supporter, a good man, and a present father. I knew it was never going to be easy, but it’s one of those things that nobody can ever truly prepare you for, and sometimes I feel like I missed out completely on my preparation. There are days where I feel like I don’t have a clue what to do or how to cope with something… but then I put on the veneer of having it all figured out and trudge forward because that’s what I know how to do. As far back as I can remember, my mantra was:

…fake it till you make it…

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Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

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I’ve had my iTunes on super rotate, and a set of lyrics struck me.

I will run
Oh and I won’t quit
Chasing Your heart
Just like David did
I’ll come running
Through the gates
Looking to Your face
Oh I can hardly wait
Until You carry my soul
Carry my soul away

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